The assorted self

I kept myself writing

Until my heart bled

Until my last word died

Until my thoughts drained

Until my notions lost meaning

 

I kept myself alive 

Until my last breath

Until my last heartbeat

Until my last dream perished 

Until my blues killed my senses 

 

I kept myself forgiving

Until my pride got bruised

Until my hurts hurt my trust

Until my womb swirled in pain

Until my weeps died in the silence 

 

I kept myself thriving

Until the await in me prospered 

Until the ambivalence conquered me

Until the naked desires forgot its route

Until the deep solitude failed to cheer me    

 

I kept myself awake

Until the longing for you prevailed  

Until the last star in the galaxy died

Until the dream of my dear embraced me

Until the first ray of dawn touched the earth

 

I kept myself blooming

Until the last flower blossomed

Until the last brown leaf withered

Until the goodbye of the last ray of sunlight

Until the smallest crescent moon kissed the sky

 

I kept myself singing

Until the songs lost the rhythm

Until the last track died in my throat

Until the expressions forgot the meaning

Until the dreamer’s dream dozed in the dales   

 

I kept myself smiling 

Until the loneliness burned me

Until the ache of my heart crushed me

Until the valley of despair destroyed me

Until the last tear drops oozed from my soul

 

I kept myself enduring 

Until my soul caressed my love

Until my beloved kissed my wounds

Until my mind revived with thy thoughts

Until my moments resumed to consciousness  

 

I kept myself hopeful

As these tears won’t be there forever

As these clouds won’t be there forever

As these loneliness won’t be there forever

As these melancholies won’t be there forever